Life...

hello everyone! i havent been on here in a areally long time so i thought i would update and tell u a lil bit about whats been going on! well as of next year august 15th, 2008 me n david are getting married!! i cant wait! hes the one ve been wanting the man of my dreams everything. and when i look back now i laugh cause i was so obssesed with cody it wasnt even funny and we werent meant for eachother lol!!! lol i was fucking dumb!!! i was so over him when me and david started going out and i am now! i dont think anything of him except for as a friend and thats where it will and needs to stay! i love david with all my heart, and ive never found someone so amazing! there is no1 so amazing then him!!! but i thought i would just tell u a lil bit, theres more but its way too much to type!!! so i will talk to you all later!!! bye.

love always,

Miranda Demeuse

so life is good right now!!! me n cody acually get along hang out n r friends now! whoot whoot!! thats all i wanted too!!! me n david are going on. we were on and off a lot but things r goin great now which is good!! i really like him a lot! hes really good to me n thats what i needed so bad! derek n manda are doing great which makes me really happy cuz shes happy finally now! n settling down! n breann got hurt once again by will which pisses me the fuck off! im sick of her gettin hurt but now she likes sumone else an hopefully she wont get hurt n she will get over will!!! i hate seing her or ne of my friends get hurt!! cuz it hurts me just as bad believe it or not! cody n jewls are good too!! im so happy for them two!! shes having her baby soon which makes me so excited!!! i cant wait!! but i thought i would update since i havent n a really long time but im going to go for now! love u all(at least most of u lol)!

*~*miranda*~*

AKA

*lady bug*

Hello guys! well nothing much has happened lately! but life is going ok, it could be better, but w/e a lot of things in life could be! i miss him, i still love him, and still want him back, and i cant, and it sucks ass! i wish i was as happy as i used to be, but life will never get that good again, until the day he realizes he needs me and loves me too, but when and if they day ever comes, i wont take him back, only cause i want him to know how i feel, and because i dont want to get hurt again and i wont, WILL NOT put myself through that again! everytime i see him, i fall in love all over again, deeper and deeper each time, it sucks too, cause i cant get over him, or stop loving him! my head is telling me to just get over him you need to, but my heart is telling me different, it is telling me you dont want to get over him, you love him! my head wants to but my heart wont let me! and i dont know what to do!? i wish he would understand, or at least sit down and talk to me, and try and have him understand, but i highly doubt that will ever happen, acually i know it never will! he wont, he doesnt care, at least thats how it seems! yes we're friends and i rather have that then nothing, but i still want more, but i cant, and then again i dont want that, cause i dont need/ want to get hurt all over again! it would kill me waaaay too bad! he was my best friend, he knows so much about me other ppl dont, but now hes just a person! he doesnt know what hes missing! the only part i ever regret is that... i wish i didnt push him so much! if i didnt we would prolly still be together! but whatever, everything happens for a reason! like he said if it was meant to be it will come back to you! and i hope it will come back to me! cause then he will realize he is missing something great, and i wont go back to it anymore! but i dont know what to do anymore!? im glad i have great friends that have and are helping me(breann, and manda)!!! i have to say those are the two most amazing ppl in my life! i love them both so much, and i feel im the luckiest person alive to have them two as friends! their great ppl who deserve more then what they have! and whether i have problems of my own, they come first on my list, their problems mean more to me to try and help them, then my own problems do! and i mean that! they have helped me a lot and i have helped them out a lot! thats just what real friends do! and i respect amanda so much for trying to be so strong even if she cant, she trys and i respect her so much for that! and breann, she knows how to handle her problems, and i love her for that, not a lot of ppl can, cause things get way too over whelming for them, and she knows how to deal with it! i love you both soooo much... u guys are my everything!! but im going to go, i need to go to bed and get some sleep! i love you all(most of you at least)!!!

*one very sad/confussed lil girl*

well so things are going good and bad! bad cause of all the fucking drama in town!! and good cause i cant say why! but anyhow how is everyone doing? im doing ok i guess, i just went to the doctor today and i got bronchitis and a sinus inffection, whish sucks ass! and on top of that i got my flu shot today too! but yea i hope everyone else is doing good! SEND ME SOME COMMENTS PPL!!

Here's a lil something to the most specialist ppl in my life!

Amanda* lady you are the most amazing person alive! you know exactly how to be friend! you are my best friend, and please dont ever change, i love you sooo much!!! and i hope you know that i will always be here for u know matter what ever happens, if we get into the hugest fight ever, i will still be there for u whether u choose to come to me or not for help! u mean everything to me, your like practically my whole life manda and i dont ever ever want to lose you! i would die if i did lose you! i cant live without ou! i love you so much goober!

Breann* ur my lil hunny, that i love to stuff in toy boxes! i want you to know that i love u and we will always be friends! we have been through sooo much shit together and got over it all! please always member i love you and im always here for u and that im glad we are friends again!!! i love u sooo much hunny!!

*miranda*

Well its been a while since ive updated, but nothing too interesting has gone on lately, me and jewls got into a huge fight, dont know whats going on with that, im still trying to get over cody and its not working very well, school sucks, life sucks, my friends i dont know i have few good friends(amanda, breann, justin, trevor, etc.)! i wish life was so much easier then what it is, i wish life didnt have so many bumps in the road along the way to reality, but it does and it sucks! and i also wish someone cared about me as much as i care about everyone else, i also wish someone loved me, but that will never happen. i pretty much just hate my life all in all right now!!!!but w/e whats new, its me! but anyways i just want to say something, i see amanda so happy now that she is with justin and thats all i ever wished for her, hopefully she gets over tom only so she doesnt feel hurt or get hurt anymore, she doesnt deserve it! no1 deserves it, i know how people feel to get hurt by love, ive had it happen to me twice, and it hurts like hell! she deserves so much more outta life then to get hurt and i hope justin wont do this, which i highly doubt he is for how long ive known him, ive never known him to hurt someone like tom hurt her or hurt her at all!! but i just wanted to say amanda i love u so much lady, but im going to go, luv ya lots ppl!!!

*miranda*